Am I a writer? Am I a graphic designer? Am I a sports guru? Am I a photographer? What do I want to do, who do I want to be and who am I?

These questions have been popping up in my head more, mainly because I quit my old job and now I’m sitting at home trying to figure out what I should do next for work. I’m perplexed and just have a feeling of being ‘stuck’. There are so many thoughts that are going through my head from what do I even want to do, to not being good enough for what I would possibly want to do in my next job.

I’m 34 years old, going on 35 next week and I feel like I still don’t have my life together. I graduated college in 2012, so about 12 years ago, and I since then I have always worked entry level type jobs as a hotel front desk associate, a reservationist at a visitors’ center, a property caretaker, an English teacher abroad, and most recently as a maintenance worker at our local town park. I’ve been so all over the place in the last 10 years and have been jumping from job to job every year or two, almost reinventing myself because that’s how drastically I change things up when I feel like I get ‘stuck’ in one thing for too long. I know a lot of people call this sporadic behavior ‘a typical millennial habit’, which it may be. Or, maybe it’s because I still haven’t found what I’m looking for (whatever that is), which is also ‘a typical millennial habit’. But, one thing is clear, my sensitive personality, my strong emotions about things, and the unique lens I see things through, pave the immediate road ahead of me and that’s how I base most if not all my decisions from.

To give you a little bit of a background, I graduated from the University of Colorado at Boulder in 2012 with a major in Advertising and a minor in Digital Arts. Advertising was actually not my first choice of study; I have always wanted to study graphic design. I chose Advertising because that was the closest thing to graphic design that was offered at my university. I thought I would just bite the bullet and do Advertising and learn graphic design at a later time, whenever that would be; obviously picking my major was not the biggest concern for me at the time. So, I graduated the university with a degree in Advertising within the normal 4-year timeframe. I didn’t have anything lined up for me career-wise after I graduated. Instead, I went back home to my home town of Telluride and started working at a front desk at my parents’ partially owned boutique hotel. This was my first big person job that paid about $12/hour, not including the minimal tips I got when I worked the breakfast shifts. I was actually satisfied with this job at the time because it taught me how to work with people, communicate and deal with real-world problems, which I didn’t really learn at all in college.

This is start of my story and journey of trying to find myself as an HSP, INFJ and Millennial in this modern world. Thank you for reading and I hope to bring more content of my personal experiences and observations I make.